Hai, kali ini saya mau bercerita sedikit tentang tryphophobia. Fobia yang sejak dulu saya alami, dan baru kemarin saya tahu namanya
Sejak dulu, tepatnya SMP ketika saya menyadari saya takut,ngeri,mendadak merinding sampai ke ubun-ubun, pernah juga lemes karena melihat gambar yang berlubang, bulat-bulat tidak beraturan, bolong-bolong atau bentol-bentol yang menjijikan. Seingat saya, ketakutan dengan yang seperti itu saya sadari ketika saya mengamati buku biologi yang ada gambar penyakit kulitnya. Tak sampai disitu, saya pernah takut dengan sejadah di rumah karena bulat-bulat dan ketika saya perhatikan sangat menyeramkan. Tapi ketika saya pulang kemarin,saya udah nggak takut lagi dengan sajadah itu.
Saya kira, saya nggak takut lagi dengan lubang. Mungkin karena saya nggak pernah ngeliatnya.
Sampai di semester 1, saya pergi ke pusat buku bekas Sriwedari. Di perjalanan, saya melihat itu, aspal yang bentol-bentol dan berlubang yang tidak dapat saya jelaskan dengan detail seperti apa. Dan saya tidak tahu mengapa, tiba-tiba seluruh bulu ditangan saya berdiri bahkan mungkin bulu-bulu halus di wajah saya. Badan saya pun mendadak panas ketika saya sentuh. Saya kemudian
We were young
We were never growing old
And the glitter was still gold
They way it used to be
It was love
It was easy just to smile
It was easy for a while
The way it used to be
But even stars they fade
And colors turn to grey
I miss yesterday
And the way it used to be
And I can't turn back time
Even if I tried
I miss you tonight
Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it's getting us drunk
Singing here's to never growing up
Call up all our friends, go hard this weekend
For no damn reason, I don't think we'll ever change
Meet you at the spot, half past ten o'clock
We don't ever stop, and we're never gonna change
Say, won't you say forever stay
If you stay forever hey
We can stay forever young
Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs
With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love
I got a bottle of whatever, but it's getting us drunk
Singing, here's to never growing up
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again
'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?
(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?
[Chorus]
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Yeah, we'll be counting stars
[Verse 1]
I see this life
Like a swinging vine